I am not a very big fan of change. 2011 for us was a BIG year of change. We had changes in our church that were SO painful to go through…dear friends leaving after being there for years with us. This caused an uneasiness in our hearts and caused us to question ourselves if we were where God wants us to be.
We watched friendships that were once close, all but disappear before our eyes. Contact was less and less before it just stopped. Beloved family members no longer have relationship with us. One so hateful and angry that his words bite and sting our hearts. Others, just no words at all where there was once a treasured friendship.
We came to the end of 2011 with hurting hearts. We entered 2012 praying that it would be a better year. We came into it with a new attitude. Our only comfort in life is that God is our Father, He is our friend, He is our brother, He is the only constant, and truly the only One we can depend on. That is as it should be, and may be why we have watched Him strip almost every relationship that was important to us away, until our only focus is Him. Maybe those very relationships we treasured became an idol, because they kept us from the One who deserves our love, affection, and time.
What we did see God do in 2011 that was good, is that He brought us closer together as a family than we’ve ever been. We love each other more than we ever have, the four of us, and our marriage is stronger than ever. It has been a fight with all that came against us.
We did not come out of 2011 unscathed or unscarred. But we came out with renewed hope and trust that God knows all things, He is in control of all things, and He has our best good in mind ALL THE TIME. He is changing US, and molding and making us into the family that He wants us to be. There are no 3 people on this earth that I would rather spend time with than the 3 I have right here in my home.
So, though I don’t like change, and I reflect on how things used to be, I’m grateful for all that God has done in our lives, and all that He has taught us as a family, and as a couple. It has deepened our affections for Christ, and made us love Him more…I wouldn’t trade that for anything we have lost in the process…
I love these 3 with all of my heart, and I’m grateful that they are part of my life. God is good….ALL THE TIME!