Happy sweet sixteen, my darling daughter! Here we are at another big milestone without you. How I miss you. “Sweet sixteen and never been kissed”, but you are held in the everlasting arms, and have kissed the face of God! We had so many hopes, dreams, and plans for your life, Madison. A ring of promise would have been put on your finger today by your daddy. A promise to protect you, and help you wait for the beautiful man God would bring along to put a different ring on your finger. That ring has been tucked away to wait 3 more years for your little sister.
I have looked at your beautiful pictures several times in the last weeks, because I finally got up the courage to share them in a private album on Facebook. You were so beautiful! We were met with some insensitive comments, but for the most part friends were touched by those precious moments we had with you. I think back to it like it was yesterday. I remember how you felt in my arms, how it felt to kiss your cool forehead, your long beautiful fingers, your sweet nose, and dark lips. I remember passing you around to family members, but selfishly wanting you back in my arms the whole time. I remember the physical ache in my heart as I watched you get wheeled out of my room, knowing I would not see you again in this lifetime.
My precious girl, it seems that each day that goes by I am farther away from you. In reality, I am one day closer to you! I long for the day when our family of five is all together again, enjoying the pleasures of heaven! I know it is nothing like we could possibly even imagine.
Happy Birthday my sweet darling daughter, I love you with all of my heart, and am so grateful that God picked me to be graced with your presence for 37 wonderful weeks. You touched me in a way no one else ever has, and I will never forget you….